today and yesterday was spent touring the big Seattle city! My lady’s dad had an extra ticket to see the space needle, so she and I went off to do that and had lunch at the Casco Antiguo and honestly it was super delicious.

but let me talk about this really cool moment that happened:

I’m very scared of heights. For some reason, my phobias have managed to amplify themselves as I have gotten older. Probably because as a kid I would jump and run and climb on anything and not notice how scared I was (until it was time to come down). But I don’t have to do that stuff at 24, so I end up throwing up when I climb too high (figuratively, but it does give me pretty intense panic), which means that the elevator up the space needle and then the revolving glass floor thing was, how do I say, fucking scary. Luckily, weed is legal here so we smoked a joint before going in so I was scared but not in a panic. BUT. They had these like. Steps. You climb on and since the observatory windows kind of lean forward, then you can lean forward and look out and it almost feels like you’re dangling over the city.

I could not do it. I know I looked happy and smiley and excited but I was so scared, I really thought for a couple of seconds I would enter in a panic and make a fool of myself. Smoking really helped (they don’t call it God’s herb for nothing). Instead, my baby said she’d hold my hand while I looked down. I know that sounds so dumb, but just feeling her next to me made me feel so secure and safe. These moments often get overlooked because it’s like, of course, your partner should make you feel safe. But it’s such a different intimacy, almost, like??? Child-like admiration. Very healing, really. And the most amazing part of the whole ordeal was that right after I climbed up, her dad (Diego, my future in law), well he just reached on over and grabbed my hand too. And suddenly I was leaning over Seattle safely in the hands of my family. People who would never let me go, no matter how ridiculous I thought it was. And then, it just wasn’t ridiculous anymore. It was just us high above the ground, laughing and joking and loving.

anyway. That was today. We got ice cream after and walked around the market place until our feet got tired and our bodies got tired and then I got tired so we left.

the cruise starts tomorrow at 10am and we set sail at around 4pm to Alaska. Of COURSE I will have pictures, however I will be mostly out of service so maybe updates will be sparing. But that’s okay. The point of this blog is to show raw, human moments. And you know what? So many of those moments are beautiful and happy and deserve to be enjoyed in all their glory, so that later I can reminisce.

here come some more pictures so buckle up. Au revoir!!